don’t know if it’s just the winter time blues or not, but i’ve just been in a bit of a rut lately. There’s no particular reason why, just have been that’s all.
Anyhow, that lead to some conversational exchanging between moi and the wonderful webby chick i know. And the suggestion was made by the wonderful webby chick to “…go on a trip and find out what u should be doing…” to which i replied “…what? like a…spiritual journey?”, and was met with a yes prefixed with 3 seconds delay and a gaze that was staring slightly to the left of me and just above my head height.
Well, that immediately reminded my of the 1988 U2 movie Rattle and Hum. Specifically the scene where Larry Mullen Jr responds to an interviewers question asking him what the flick is about, in his thick Irish accent, “it’s a musical journey!”.
So, a spiritual journey hey?
And that got me thinking. does one need to travel out to somewhere, ANYWHERE, go on a quest to find TEH something? go on a trip with the sole purpose of EXPECTING an answer to the very thing that they don’t even know what it is they’re questioning?
And, let’s just assume for hypothetical’s sake (top bloke he is) I do go on this “spiritual journey” (please use irish accent when saying that, it feels better). There’s a few things that need to be asked just there.
1. Where do I go?
2. What do I DO there once i get to ANSWER 1?
3. So I start doing ANSWER 2 and then how will I know the answer when I come across it?
4. And assuming i come across ANSWER 3, what then?
Its a “spiritual journey”!
Ok. I need to understand what frame of mind I would need to be in? Do I need to be expectant of an answer? Do i need to start out seeking (for something I don’t really know) and expect that I will find it? Seek and ye shall find! (Irish accent optional).
What would you do? allow urself to be immersed in experience? spirituality? both? circumstance? is it ok to go to the chosen place with no clue of where to go, who to seek, nor what to do?
I know these words may come across as nonsensical scattered thoughts and in some ways showcase my current state.
It’s a musical journey says Larry, only now i need to find out what instrument to play, and the scariest part, is finding out if I can play?
And me thinks the latter question might be the root of the problem.